2012 is set to be a big year. I am currently making huge life-changing steps to get where I want to be, and it is taking a fair amount of my energy. Alongside that, because dreams don't always come true and money doesn't grow on tress, I'm also planning a whole range of huge life-changing things, because I've had my year of wanting things to change, and now I'm having my year of making things change.
So, here are a few of the huge (and less-huge) goals for this year - the hugest one of which has been left out, in order to protect my own sanity if it all falls apart!
1. Climb a new mountain
2. Go on holiday abroad
3. Buy a house (huge, I know, but exciting, too!)
4. Get a time of 2 hours or less in a half marathon
6. Floss every day (10 days out of 11 so far - not bad!)
7. Get something published
8. Read more non-fiction
Aside from these goals, though, I just want 2012 to be awesome. 2010 was awesome, and it didn't involve a novel or a house deposit or even particularly good dentistry; when I think back, the achievements and fulfilment that came with 2010 came directly from me, from my heart, even. So I'm giving my heart to this year; to building myself again from scratch, to taking on awesome things and saying 'yes' to even the scariest challenges. I want to re-discover the person I was two years ago: enthusiastic about the future, passionate about my cause, lively and sociable. She's still in there somewhere, I'm sure!
I've woken up every morning lately with a ball of excitement inside me, eager to get into my day and make the awesome happen. I feel more in love than ever, more in control than ever, and more excited than I have in a long time about just being where I am, and getting where I want to be. The thing about a new year is that it gives us a place to start afresh; even though the sun and moon rise and fall just as every other day, the celebrations, the champagne, the relfections on the previous year - they all say 'here, take another chance and use it'. I feel that I've been uncharacteristically gloomy for the past few months, letting my woes stew together and constantly wishing I was elsewhere. So, in short, my new year's resolution (which has taken 11 days to really materialize) is to constantly strive to be the person I want to be. To be kinder, more passionate, a little less frantic, to spend time doing what I love, to take risks and put myself right out there when given the opportunity.
2012 is going to bring its challenges, I'm sure. But this year I am striving to do more awesome things, and to make 2012 a really big year.